SUN SEA & SAND Pt 1.

 
 

 My Earliest Memories of the beach.
  
 The memory that jumps to mind immediately as being my first of the beach, is sitting on the soft sand of what has to be Porth beach and digging in the sand with a red plastic spade. 
 I still can see the spade quite clearly, it was about eight inches long and the colour was very bright, the red being of Royal Mail post-box shade.
          I had a bucket as well, it was bright canary yellow and round, and my father had been showing me how to make sandcastles with it.
          It's easy to remember the golden sands, dry and warm at the surface of the beach, but underneath wet and cold. It was this wet sand that I needed, so that the castles I made were solid, and didn’t crumble immediately.
          I must have been three or four years of age, and I was quite happy to be digging in the sun in my little T-shirt, shorts and sun hat.
  
 Along with this memory, and this is why I am sure the first memory is of me at Porth, is paddling with my father in the river running out of Porth. 
 Every stone in that stream, and there were many, had a slight covering of bright green seaweed, and every stone had a ring of tiny glass eels.
 These see-through eels would be wriggling, and desperately trying to stay in place until they had a chance on the rising tide to get even further up the river. 
 They’d most likely been born in the Sargasso Sea, a gyre in the middle of the Atlantic Ocean, covered mostly by Sargassum seaweed. 
 The waters of the Sargasso are deep and clear blue, and an ideal spawning place for eels. The elvers, so called glass eels, due to their transparency, would swim back to the rivers that their parents had lived in. 
 Once there, they’d feed, grow fat darkening to a dark grey colour. They’d be much larger by this time and ready for their long swim back to the Sargasso to breed.
 I’d collected lot of these eels with my bucket, and by just dipping it into the water near them. As water had flowed into the bucket, so had they, it wasn’t at all hard to catch them. 
 It is impossible today, for me to tell how many eels there were in the stream mouth, as there were hundreds of thousands. However, I do know that the last time I visited when they should have been swarming, there were none that I saw, and that was maybe three decades ago.
  
 Having captured some, I would return slowly to my waiting father who would be sitting in the sun keeping an eye on me, and then we’d watch them for a while. 
 He always encouraged me to let them go, but I have to admit to remembering that I once waited too long, and they had died from the suns heating of the water in the bucket.
 This is my earliest memory of death, as when I had poured them back into the river later, and they’d not wriggled away. I’d enquired of the reason why, and my father had explained about death, and I had been quite startled.
  
 With this memory of bucket and spade, also stirs my first memory of jealousy, because around this time, there became available square buckets with built in turrets at each corner. 
 I never did have one of these buckets, but as a small child I can remember my envy of other children who had these buckets. It was just a tiny desire to have the ease that these brought for building sandcastles, but it was jealousy.
 Luckily for me, I lost all interest in what others had been given or bought early on. I was happy for friends who were happy, but often I chose a different path, and wanted different things in life to them. I guess you might call me sensitive now, as I enjoyed being on my own, painting, drawing and writing’ I also had a fascination for the company of women, and avoided football, drinking and other so called manly pursuits.
  
 This wasn’t inherited from my father’s genes, as he enjoyed a pint, loved watching football, and supported Arsenal is I remember correctly. The interest in women? That definitely came from my father’s side, that I do know, as he actively encouraged me to have girlfriends when I was at an early age.
  
 Lack of jealousy? I count myself lucky that I’m not in constant competition with neighbours and friends over possessions, keeping up with the Jones. In my mind, this can only lead to sadness, and I seek to lead to a constantly happy life and have no time to worry about what others have chosen to do with their lives. That isn’t to say that I take no notice of their lives, but I’m contented to be happy for them, if they feel they’re filling their desires.
 I’ve suffered so called friends who constant vie to be ahead of me, and I have always let them slip away.
 This lack of jealousy did make me more inclined to play by myself as I wasn’t competitive, and just found my own company healthier. 
 So, although I had a lot of acquaintances, I didn’t have many close friends in my childhood. 
 A lot of my acquaintances had absolutely no idea who I was inside, and I just didn’t care, quite often going out with the intention of staying on my own.
  
 So, without further ado, onto the older memories that I have of the beach.
  
 The next is set in the winter, I’m about four, and it’s certainly before I even started school. 
 It was cold and stormy day; my mother had dressed me in a royal blue duffle coat ready to go out for a walk with my father and the dogs. 
 I remember leaving my parents bungalow on the hill above the beach, it had been very blustery. My father was holding me by one hand, and his other hand was concerned with our three long haired black and tan standard dachshunds. 
 They were pulling his arm out as they attempted to beat each other to the beach and were dragging him along behind them.
  
 I don’t remember what I was wearing on my bottom half, but I do know that I had on short red wellies. I also remember that my father was wearing his sage green naval duffle coat, with a dark navy blue bottle hat, and large dark green wellingtons.
 I was being somewhat hauled along by my father, as the Dachshunds progressed and pulled at my father arm.  As they neared the seaside, they had yipped their way more and more confidently to the beach. 
 We only had to cross one road at the bottom of the hill and then a hundred yards later, we’d be by the sand.
 We’d not gone onto the left side however, we had crossed the road bridge and then walked out on the right-hand side of the beach.
  
 As a child, and all the way through growing up, I called this side of the beach, ‘The Rocky Side’, the other, ‘The Sandy Side’. 
 The rocky side was just a narrow strip of sand by the river side, the low cliffs of Trevelgue head on the other side. 
 The sea had been halfway in, and the beach in some places was covered to a depth of three feet with a deep cream coloured sea foam. It had been generated by the winds whipping up the heavy winter seas.
  
 The top of the foam had dirt covering, and if you got it on your clothes, it stuck and stained them. 
 The dogs had been released from their leashes, and were dashing alongside the cliffs, but keeping well back from the foam. 
 Leaving me to play on the sand, my father had taken up a position on a bladder wrack covered rock and was currently gazing out to sea. 
 The river had been on the side furthest of the rock, so well away from me. I couldn’t see it though, because of the foam. 
 I remember I had felt the need to be up on the rock with my father, see what he was looking at, and so, I had climbed up. 
 I was maybe four feet from where he stood with his back to me, and I’d attempted in my little wellies, to walk over to him. 
 My boots had slipped, I’d stumbled, and slid down under the foam and into the river. 
 As I’d gone under, I’d screamed in fright, but under the foam, and in the water of the river with the incoming tide, I’d a mouthful of dirty water, and was panicking because I couldn’t breathe now.
  
 I wasn’t in that predicament for more than a few seconds, because of course my father jumped in and hauled me out by the hood of my duffle coat. 
 He’d dropped me back to the beach like a floundering fish, and checked me to see that I was okay, and then used his handkerchief to clean up my face and clear my nostrils. 
 He was of course, none too pleased at my adventure, but as he had been responsible for looking after me, he knew that he’d be in trouble with my mother as soon we got home to mother.
  
 My father had rounded up the dogs, and then he’d marched me back home, and he’d been right, mother had berated him for a long time, as she had stripped and then bathed me.
 He couldn’t have hidden what had happened to me, as my duffle coat was thoroughly wet through, and also covered in messy foam, so the moment my mother’s eyes had alighted in me, he was in the poop.
 It took my father quite a while to live that particular incident down. Whenever he took me out for the next few months, he was admonished before we had even left the house. Although he kept more of an idea on me now, he never really curtail my freedom, and I had many happy hours with him on the sand as you’ll find out.