The Hag

Chapter One.

The Sea is bewitched.

The waters on the foreshore rumbled and rushed, sending tendrils of iridescent foam landward, before streaming back to the main body of the sea. The constant cacophony of the rolling waves, the sands incessant grinding under the oceans action, made it almost impossible for the beachcomber to hear the Isles breeze that whistled about his woollen cap. Clothed against these frigid elements, he’s posed in a well-worn black pea jacket, beneath which resides a tattered Harris tweed suit with accompanying Isles jumper. His inner jacket is tucked away into his trousers which are covered by oil skin pants that buckle to his shoulders, stout oily hand knitted socks cover his feet which are rammed down securely inside battered sea boots. His jacket collar raised, coat toggled firmly shut, his powerful muscular neck rises from an old rough woolly scarf to a thrusting chin, firm mouth, blunt nose, and glowering brow ridges covered with greying twisting eyebrows.

On his right side the white sanded dunes, on the left the lively sea, and as he progressed along the no man’s land between dry land and the deep, his eyes constantly flickered over the sands in front of him and the restless surf. His eyes the colour of late winter briny, blue green with the merest hint of a sparkle which just maybe came from the winds driven salt causing an occasional tear to form at the corner of his eyes. Over years of this his ongoing journey, his skin had leathered into wrinkles around his sea-coloured eyes, the texture reddened now, but later in the shelter of his Croft, his skin would dull back to its natural nut browned tone. Over the last three decades, the summer sun had written its work upon his skin, his journeys along this lonely stretch, journaled by its rays’ raising welts over his exposed frame.

His hope, his mission of a morning, to discover gifts from his mistress the sea, maybe driftwoods from distant shores, riven fishing creels, even broken boats could come ashore with weed encrusted netting at this time of year. Twigs, trunks, both tree and man-made could roll inwards upon this shore, this shore trapped between two stark blackened headlands. Often nowadays, there was much evidence of man, where years before there’d been only sea-soaked wooden artefacts, now plastic also wended through the Bladderwrack. Plastic bottles with wording in many languages, even Arabic and Chinese script were to be found amongst the flotsam and jetsam on this shore, items from currents far flung from this isolated spot. Each plastic piece is meticulously removed from the sands by his hands and placed in a rough hessian sack that the man carried. Wooden items of interest were placed almost lovingly into a knapsack on his back, the flap with its stitched leather straps fluttered up and down behind him like a flag and would continue to do so until he buckled it down at the end of his progression across the sands between the heads. He examines each wood item, and if it didn’t warrant further inspection, it would join other wood detritus that rested in small piles just out of any encroaching wave lip. Later he’d return to collect these pieces, but the prizes that he’d wrestled from the weed, these would return homewards with him when he clambered back up to his Croft that nestled in the safety of the dunes.

Then, in the calmer waters just beyond the rollers, something caught and held the combers eye, a gleaming spike that seemed to tear through the fabric of the sea, then abruptly slither back, before then gliding back once again into his gaze. Attention caught, he now avidly peers through the stinging salt spray that’s whipped from the horses’ manes of the breakers by the gusting breath of the breeze.

There, and then gone, yes there, but gone, is this some oceanic beast hunting for some prey, or the arm of a man in his last dying gasp?

He’s sighted Orcas here for seals, Basking sharks, Dolphin, and Porpoise, and once, the behemoth shape of a Leatherback turtle as it heaved like a floundering rowboat through the froth of a running tide, but this is none of these. Something lurks beyond his sight, and for a moment the thought of climbing to a higher vantage, slinks insidiously through his mind, before being cast away to the need to progress in his morning chores.

The first is his passage from headland to headland, the second, to carry the plastic to a safe dump, the third to collect the wooden detritus in his now empty bag, only then, can he return to his Croft for a well-earned smoked Haddock piece.

Nothing more does he see, no protrusion from the uneasy waters to spear with his stare, and so he returns his consideration to his routine, and as his eyes travel listless from sea to shore, there’s an object before him that wasn’t there before. Along the wavelength to the headland in front of him, there appears to be a figure stooping away from his sight. It’s a vague shape no more, a brownish hump upon the sands, it’s difficult to discern if creature, or indeed just a large mound of weed. But then it moves, a shambling gait, and there appears to be an arm that momentarily waves waist height across the tide line before it. His solitude appears broken, although in all the history of his winters, is the first interloper that he’s ever seen upon what he feels is his sands. Summer yes, occasional tourists, sometimes locals beach casting for the Codling, but other winter combers, never.

Inside his ire swells, his daily routine broken, and maybe this person is stealing what he feels is rightfully his, his trade, his job, his time, his money. For here along the tides edge, is where he finds his materials with which to carve through these long cold winter nights. For in combinations of shells, carved creatures, and natural stone, he makes his trinkets for the tourist seasons. This is how he makes his life, a paltry sum earned, just enough to buy the essentials to live through winter, but no more.

With purpose now, the man drops his sack above the tidewater, and then starts toward this interloper, as he feels, on his beach. He’ll have some words, maybe some craic, no more, for he’s sure they’ll understand his reasoning and leave him to his solitary work.

The Sea Wood.

He strides across the sands, but the nearer he gets, the further away the hump appears, the impression he gets is that it’s as though he is in a tunnel with the stranger speeding away into the distance. He knew he was walking; he feels his legs moving, his increased breathing, the angle of his back as he leaned into his stride, and yet, this had no bearing on his progress. And then he believes he hears a shout, a call from behind him, he turns, his eyes follow his track back towards the opposite headland, nothing, and then he scans the dune tops momentarily.

He sees the Marram grasses waving, can imagine their clicking and rustling as his eyes turn back to the wayward figure, and it’s gone. Turning back towards where he thought he’d heard the loud ‘Hallo’, he scans the far headland, with then further scrutiny of the dune top, but no figure or indeed figures tarry there. He returns his eyes to the nearest headland, the wind can play powerful jests, maybe the whoop had originated there. But there’s no silhouette to see, no rambling figures to call, he’s baffled to say the least, as he’d half expected to spy a local hoping for a morning catch to supplement their stores.

Blinking against the winds bite, he wipes his eyes with the back of his hand, and then walks to where he thought the apparition stood, and there in the sands, two slight impressions in the ground, slowly filling with the wetness of the sea swipe. He slowly turns on his heel inspecting the scene brought before him, there’s no sign of any figures, and he finally gazes up and over the rollers to the distant sea.

Nothing, not a thing, not a dropping Gannet or wheeling gull, the wave tops appear unnaturally clear.

Looking back over the ocean to where he’d stood and seen this vision, he once again thinks that he can see a bone white arm, which is raised up from the chilly sea. But as he cranes his neck, it disappears behind a wave, and after the wave top falls away, there’s nothing left but empty troubled waters. He suddenly resolves to leave mysterious thinking to others who like to gossip, and he returns to his hessian sack. Lifted in his grasp, he resumes his track, but now he no longer gazes out towards the horizon, not because he isn’t curious, but more that he’s marginally worried by just what he might spy.

He’s not a man of foolish fantasies, a believer in myths and local legends, but over the years he’s seen some weird and unexpected things himself, and over an odd dram, he’s occasionally heard a story from an indigenous Isles inhabitant. Tale tells at a ceilidh, were entertainment, no more, as was eating, drinking, singing, playing music and dancing, you may also find a single man with old women negotiating a suitable marriage. There’d always be vivid stories of daring do, lone fishing adventures and rescues, gruesome tales of whole fishing boats crews going down with not a survivor.

But then, there’s those rarer stories told of the lonely corners of the Isles, where mermaids lure youngsters to their graves in the deeps, or beasties rise to take their due. Scuttlebutt of sea witches and unseen forces play apart, along with fantasies of men seduced by over endowed lone succubae, which are intent on stealing the man’s soul through his seed.

Still, he’s wasted too much time on this silliness, and he’s a pragmatic man if nothing else, so now working fast, he arrives quickly at where the rocks reach down from the headland to barb the sea. Turning away from the tide, he then makes his way speedily inland to the leading edge of the dunes, here he removes his knapsack, before stashing it just a few feet up the dune’s.

For a moment he crouches so that he can catch all his breath, and then he heaves up, grips the sack filled with plastic waste, swings it up and on his back, and then with fortitude he begins his ascent of the rearing dune face. He has accomplished this climb every day for decades, but he’s older now, and has a particularly heavy sack weighing down upon his broad back today. The soft dry sands of the dunes run and slide from his feet, it’s a tricky climb, more two steps forward to one step back, and he soon feels the strain. His thigh muscles tighten painfully, his calf muscles ache, and nowadays he needs a halfway stop to ease his lungs. He pushes ever upwards until his legs feel stiff with his exertions, and it is then that he turns to look back across the surging sea, and from here, at a hundred feet, he immediately sees the nude rolling trunk of a tree in the ocean below.

Bark stripped by the action of the sea, inner wood bleached by a hotter sun than here, one branch left, which lifts and falls in the incoming rollers, as it rides the ocean just beyond the surf. This is what he mistakenly thought an arm, or some sort of sea beast, and inwardly he chuckles at his foolishness in thinking he’d seen something mysterious. However, should this large piece of driftwood make landfall on the beach below, it would be an enormous prize for him, if only he can drag it enough inland to save it from the tidewater.

He ponders, and then decided, he climbs higher, tired of this chore, once at the top, and without turning, he empties the contents of his sack down the other side of the dune. Looking down, he sees the ever-increasing mountain of plastic which he’s cleaned for the beach behind him. He knows he needs to start thinking about contacting the Isles council, having them come to remove and dispose of this rubbish, otherwise he’s going to be accused of ruining the dunes.

Turning slowly, he starts carefully retracing his steps down the side of the dunes, here if he doesn’t concentrate on his next footing, then falling and rolling down the steep sands could result in a broken leg, he paused to check what he now thinks of as his log. At the bottom, and with now an empty sack, he goes from stack to stack, and starts to fill the sack from each pile of wood that he had collected earlier.

This he feels is a much easier part of this chore, but now also he feels hungry and hurries as he wants to retire to the warmth of his Croft and lunch. All this wood, after he’s given a second peruse, will go into the hearth fire, or to power the cast iron oven, it certainly wouldn’t be wasted. Larger pieces would usually be dried, neatly stacked, and kept for next winter, if there was one thing that he’d learnt from living here, it was always be prepared.

Collected drift needed to be dry, otherwise when burnt, the rough fire hearth would fill the one room Croft with choking smoke. So, for those cold wind riven nights, he had a neatly stacked, tarpaulin covered stash, although it was mostly used for preparation of food, the dry wood burning although quicker, more hotly, if very wintry he’d use some for-heating fuel if desperate. Finally, he reaches the last pile, shoving it roughly away into his sack, he starts for the dune directly before him, from the top, it was a short walk across the sea of dunes into the hinterland to reach what he calls home.

As he climbs towards the top, and in a better mood now, he reminisces how easy it had been to collect driftwood when he first arrived here to live. It seemed that back then, that there’d been a lot more wood washed up on the shore, in fact, if he remembered correctly, it had been piled high, and that there was also so much more to be collected all year round, not like nowadays. The wood had pushed up to the dunes then, the nearest having dried over progressive warm summers.That was something else that had altered, the long hot summers had shortened until instead of warmer weather running from May until late September, it was a good year if it started in June and ended in the middle of September.

He topped the dune, it is all downhill now, and his consideration of some lunch makes his mouth water. He might have considered not only a piece, but also baking some tatties, but at the back of his mind, his ‘log’ needed some thoughts and actions now, before it might be washed away along the coast. Hopefully it would beach naturally, but even then, it would need to be saved before it might be re-floated by a spring tide, which would maybe drag it away again.

The Sea is a fickle mistress and could give and take with the same hand, she had the habit of a saucy temptress and had caught him out many times before. He’d experienced one of her contests and duelled with her when bathing on what appeared to be a calm tide, it was then that he’d encountered her treacherous nature in the form of a rip current that had come close to drowning him. Exhausted as he had dragged himself up upon the sands, and at last free from her turquoise nails that still raked at his ankles, he’d sworn he’d never match wills with her again. Of course, to ply his trade, or wrestle fish from the sea with rod and line, he knew it was only time before he’d feel her loving, but dangerous embrace and then wrestle once again with her desire. So, therefore he had no intentions of playing any tug of war with her, not unless he was well prepared and had the chance of getting the upper hand.

There among the humpback sands, a Marram thatched roof rises, the grasses have darkened with smoke and winter rains, but the inside remains dry and warm. The meandering breezing white coral and shell sands have been packed down like too much shopping in an overstuffed bag. His continual marching boots have worn an easily followed path, in places the salty earth even rises to the surface in patches of darkness.

The man follows this line, tacking securely through the sands, for here he is sheltered from the worst of winters inclement weather, the wind rattling the grasses and moaning overhead. Odd gusts still lift the fine white fragments of shell to sting his eyes in erratic moments, and to which his only real defensive act, is to squint his eyes almost shut, said grit then dusting his eyelashes, but it is still an eye watering assault. As he rounds one particularly large sandy mound, his eyes almost fast shut, he spots his hunkered house with its small deep-set windows pointing into morning.

Its stout door made from driftwood spars, dowelled, and hammered together by his own sweat and hands. The building of a whole, glowers with its gloomy shadowed entrance as he marches determinedly onwards to this his steadfast home. On reaching the harbouring of its heavy walls, it’s then he realises that he’s not brought home his real booty, that he’s left his knapsack on the ocean dunes face, and that his morning work is maybe wasted.

It’s not his way to curse, but in this moment, he lets forth such an expletive, and then turns guiltily as if he believes that there is honestly another to hear his language, but he’s alone as always. Turning back to this house’s sturdy door, he looks down at its stout doorstep, and there clearly marked out on the stone top, medium narrow set wet footprints facing inwards to the inside.

His brows knit in indignation, his calloused hand grips firmly the wrought iron handle, for even though there’s no lock to his house, who’d dare to enter in without his permission?

The Log by the Sea – Part 20.

The Log by the Sea

The Log by the Sea.

Part 20.

The Meeting…

I feel at rest, each day, each month, each year, nothing changes for me, but I feel replete, and more much, much more than that, for I am happy. I have my cooking for the day in the morning when I rise from my dreamless sleep, and then I come here for a while, watch the sea, and then swim before returning to my croft where I carve animals or paint throughout the afternoon. I always have dinner late and then it’s time to sleep my long and dreamless sleep. I hardly ever see anyone, and that is the way it should be for me, today however as I sit upon my log contemplating my swim, I hear footsteps, and then a man sits beside me.

I met this man only yesterday, where upon he just said one phrase “I believe my wife will join us today…!”

Today I look him squarely in the face and know we have met before, where I am not sure, my memory not being so good nowadays, I cannot even seem to remember how I came to live here. He smiles reassuringly and then repeats his words of yesterday.

“I believe my wife will join us today..!”

Strange, something jars my memory as if I have heard these words many times before, and then I rise to remove my clothes so that I can be ready to meet the incoming tide. As I unbutton my shirt I turn, and looking up the beach, I see a group of people at the head of the dunes, and then below them on the loose sand face, a youngish woman slipping and sliding down to the beach. The man rises from the log and walks away across the soft sands to meet her, but he walks only a few feet before turning back to look at me, which is when I notice he has a carving in his hand. It appears to be one of mine of man and fish, and then he smiles broadly before nodding and turning away from me, and then heading for the woman who with wide open arms is approaching swiftly. He too opens his arms wide and they reach each other, her face is smiling, she looks about to laugh, then they hug hard and then I hear him speak some words.

“Evelyn my love!”

I turn back to the sea, and then make my way outwards wading quickly, before looking back to see them making they’re way the length of the beach away from me. I turn my stare back once more to the sea, just for a moment, and then when my gaze returns to them, I notice they seem almost made of smoke, and with contact from the slightest Ocean breeze are fading. I slip beneath the waves to the comfort of my lover and mistress, the sea, after all there is no other lover awaiting me… But I as they, are content for we are all together for eternity…

The End.

The Log by the Sea – Part 19.

The Log by the Sea

The Log by the Sea.

Part 19.

Back at the croft…

Having returned from Stornoway with Esme who was feeling much better now, and having gone over her story with her again in the car, I am beginning to feel that maybe I have judged the man in the sea all wrong. I have been after all judging him from the farmer’s legend, and also the feelings I had when I approached the front door of his Black House. Sitting with a mug of tea in front of the fire, with all my family gathered about me safe, the idea of having a ghost, or Fae creature nearby in the sea, seems rather ridiculous now There is no doubt in my mind however that something happened to Esme in the water, and her story seems to say that the man in the sea was her saviour.

It’s nearly the end of the day, and I feel myself quite agitated by the idea that maybe the Islanders made a great mistake all those years ago by binding the man to the sea, and not allowing him to return home to his croft. I’m not sure why, but I put on my jacket and then go outside, and start making my way to his Black house. As I approach the doorway I feel yet again that uneasiness in the pit of my stomach, and it is almost as though something is pushing me back. Stooping under the low eave however, I find myself face to face with the Old Woman’s dangling spell, I step forward in a crouch and grasp it, then with a sudden jerk I pull it from where it has been hammered all these years. I bundle it up in my hands, and as I back out and away from the doorway I feel two things, one a sense of relief, and the other as though something malevolent has been laid to rest. I hurry back to our croft and without bothering to take my outside jacket off; I stride into the small lounge, and quickly throw all of it onto the log and peat fire!

Evelyn and the girls look into my face shocked, as the fire consumes all the little articles and their attachments, some of them crackling and dancing on the open flames. Evelyn asks me what the devil I just thrown on the fire, but before I can answer there is a crash of wind, and heavy raindrops slam into the tiny windows of the croft. The is a hush in the room as for just mere moments a storm hammers and rages around the house before silence suddenly falls again. The fire is giving off a slight whiff of burnt shells, but other than that everything is back to normal. I look at their surprised faces, but decide telling Evelyn what has just happened, will bring her to believe I have been reading far too many of my own stories.

I head back outside, and then walk towards the dunes, I feel Esme catch me up and walk by my side closely, we say nothing and I have a feeling that she almost knows what I have done. Reaching the dune tops, we stand looking in teeth of the breeze coming from the Atlantic Ocean, then I look downwards to the lonesome log, but there is no sign of the man, or in the sea. I’m not sure what I thought I would perhaps perceive, but I think at the back of my head, I thought maybe I had helped him, as he had helped Esme, that I would have paid him back the debt I owed.

With our hands rammed deep in our jacket pockets, we slowly strolled across the sandy Marram grasses towards our distant croft with the wind assisting us with almost a push in the back. The nearer we got to the old Black House, the more nervous I got, and I felt Esme link her arm through mine so I felt I was not on my own in feeling that something was maybe going to happen. Approaching the low outline of the Black house in the dusk, we started to skirt it rather than just walk straight past. I didn’t feel scared or threatened, but rather thought that I should give it a chance to rest after the years it had been under the thrall of the evil spell. We passed by with no event, and walked maybe another hundred feet on before I felt the sudden need to turn. I couldn’t be sure, but in the low light it looked exactly as if there was the figure of a man sitting in the front of the Black House, and it seemed to me that he was carving something…

The next morning we had to start home to Oxford, and we were all up early and even the girls were packed. Surprisingly both Bryn and Esme were miserable to be departing the Isles, and so there were sad faces all round. On leaving the croft to load the car, I found a strange little carving of a man holding a fish on the windscreen, and on picking it up I felt compelled to look towards the Black House, before I slipped it into my pocket, determining not to tell any of the others. The Black House looked peaceful, although I was not sure if I maybe saw a little curl of smoke from the main chimney, and smelt peat burning on the slight breeze coming in from the sea. On the drive home after the ferry crossing to Skye, I realised that one day I would return to see the man in the sea, be he on his log or indeed in the water…

The Log by the Sea – Part 18.

The Log by the Sea

The Log by the Sea.

Part 18.

The log by the sea…

The sea is a little rough, and as I approach the time to swim, I hear a faint sound of shuffling from behind me, footsteps on the sand…. I do not turn my head; I shall not encourage what is obviously going to be some holidaymaker who only wants to gossip. I have no time to chew the fat, and then just for a fleeting moment, a scene from ‘Through the Looking-Glass and What Alice Found There’ comes unbidden into my thoughts. I would undeniably be the Carpenter with all my carving, therefore would the other be the ‘Walrus’ and if so what experience makes him so?

I switch from the vista of waves to where my feet rest on the plain white sand just as I feel the log dip as weight is added to the right end. I glance just momentarily sideways and catch a glimpse of a man, a man who is dressed a little lightly in my opinion for the weather of the day before returning my gaze to the sea again. We sit for a while together, no words are spoken, and I feel no need to pronounce any utterance, which might be interpreted as an invite to converse on some mundane subject…

Finally in a quiet voice the man says… I believe my wife will join us today…

I turn my head to look directly at him, he is much older than I thought, and for the merest moment I have a feeling of déjà vu!

Well I have no time to waste, after all I have a pottage simmering very gently back at my croft, and I need my short amount of daily exercise, so I stand and undress, aware that his eyes are on me all of the time, then I walk the short distance to the lapping waves, walking steadily outwards until I am waist deep in the restless waters. Only then do I turn to look back at him, nod, and then dive beneath the cold salty waters. When I surface, he is gone, and so I return to my Mistress the sea for another minute or two of exercise, before leaving her unrequited, to dry myself in the slight breeze, and then dress before making my way up the dunes to my meal of the day…

The Log by the Sea… Part 17.

The Log by the Sea

The Log by the Sea…

Part 17.

From the dune tops…

Sitting by Esme’s bed in the hospital I felt so helpless, and even though we have been told that she would be OK, and that she is not responding to us just because she has withdrawn from her experience of near drowning. Evelyn and Bryn had gone to get meal in the small restaurant of Stornoway hospital half an hour or so ago. I am left alone to contemplate how I would have felt if we had lost our daughter, and the thoughts would be impossible to put into words. The strain on Evelyn in the last few hours has shown in the increased lines in her face, but we have pulled together and kept a united face for the sake of Bryn. Bryn who is now blaming herself for some silly fight that she and Esme had before Esme left the croft earlier, even though we have assured her that all that happened was nothing to do with her.

It’s been a few hours since Bryn and I arrived in the Audi, with us having driven wildly across the tiny roads of Harris and then onto the Isle of Lewis. We have spent hours waiting for tests, tests which in the end proved negative, tests to see if Esme’s brain had been starved of oxygen with her near drowning. Of course we will only find out if our little girl has really survived when she regains consciousness, and that is why one of has to stay with her, by her side for when she does awaken. Evelyn had not wanted to leave her, but I had told her that she needed rest herself, and that food would help her keep spirits up.

I sit slumped in the high backed chair next the side of Esme’s bed, she is breathing quietly, evenly and I see her hand move slightly on the clean light blue blanket which rests over the crisp white sheet she is lying under, Esme moved! She opens her blue eyes and I rise to look into her face, her eyes focus, and then she smiles slightly before coughing a little.

“Hi Dad…”

I want to grab her up and hug her, but instead I handle her like a cracked china doll, hugging her gently, and then kissing her cheek before I allow her head fall back to the pillow.

“It’s OK Esme, I’m here, and so is Mum and Bryn, but they are just getting something to eat.”

She smiles and looking around, asks where she is? I explain gradually how I found her, and then carried her back to the croft. How Evelyn and I had cleaned her up whilst Bryn called for an ambulance, which then took her here to Stornoway with her Mother, and how Bryn and I had followed in our car. She looked confused and said hadn’t I rescued her from the sea? Puzzled I told her that I had found her by the log on the sands. Esme frowned a little then said

“Oh I remember now, I fell into the sea watching Dolphins!”

Suddenly Evelyn arrived back on the scene, burst into tears and hugged Esme to her breasts, Bryn stood behind her, tears running down her face crying softly, just saying her sister’s name over and over. Evelyn rocked Esme to and fro in her arms until I intervened and told her to let Esme rest, and then Evelyn laid her back on the bed, before asking her…

“What the devil where you doing Esme, and just how did you get into the water?”

Esme looked up at us, and then quietly told her story of how she had fallen, and of how she had thought she would die, and then how she had come around on the beach below the dunes with a man’s arms around her, a man she thought for a moment had been me, a man who had told her that her Father was on the way to save her.

A day later, and with Esme in the car with us, we returned to the croft on Harris. It was obvious to me that Evelyn would not be letting either of the girls from her sight for the remaining days of our holiday, and so I set about putting pen to paper to write down the strange events of our stay on Harris, maybe it might serve to earn us a little money if nothing else! The girls hardly left the croft in the next few days, and only if they were with both of us. Each morning though I walked the dune tops alone, but saw no sign of the man in the sea, he didn’t appear once, not on his log, or where I had seen him in the sea the day that Esme nearly drowned. I cannot honestly say that I wanted to see him. But I was somewhat confused about the man, as the farmer up in the hills had told me that the locals thought he was Fae, and yet he may have been Esme’s saviour! Each day I passed his black house, I gave it a wide berth, remembering the feeling of evil in its doorway, and believing that his presence still lingered there in his carvings.

And so came the last full day on the island, tomorrow we would begin our long journey home, the rest of our holiday had been uneventful. I had spoken a couple of times to Esme about her accident, and I think in my mind, I wanted to believe that the Fae had pulled her into the sea, and not the other way around. I wondered if Esme had been confused and I wanted to believe he had tried to drown her, but she always insisted that he had saved her, and so that is how it came to be, that I was on the dune tops looking down at the log where I found her half drowned that fateful day.

Today he was sitting there; looking out to sea. All I could see was the back of his head, and as I stood looking down upon him, he suddenly arose from his seat on the log, arose, and then quickly and efficiently stripped away his clothes. He crouched and bundled his clothes together swiftly, before tying them to the log with his belt, and then slowly making his way into the sea. Once waist deep he turned, and then gazed back and up at me, our eyes locked, he slowly inclined his head, and then he slipped beneath the cold waters.

Slowly, cautiously, I made my way down the dunes face, and then walked slowly to the log, never once taking my eyes from the surface of the sea where he had disappeared. When finally I reached the log, and it was only then, that I allowed my eyes to fall from the sea to the log, and as they focused on the rounded wood, I realised there were no clothes there, no bundle, and no belt!

I knelt at the back of the log, and felt carefully along its length, nothing, although one of my fingers did just catch on something for the merest moment in the soft sand. Carefully I sifted back through the white sand, and felt some something cold, and very hard, my fingernails scratched over its surface as I dug the sand away from the object. In my hands I held a handmade old rusting iron buckle…

The Log by the Sea – Part 16.

 

The Log by the SeaThe Log by the Sea

Part 16.

Sand, Seashells and Seahorses… – Esme’s Story…

I remember that in the morning, Mum and Dad had decided to go for a long drive, and my sister Bryn and I had guessed they did not want us along to spoil their romance!

My intentions had been to while away the day reading my book once they had gone, but shortly after they left, Bryn and I had a sisterly spate, and suddenly my plans transformed, no longer wishing to be in the same house as her, I decided to walk the cliffs. We did argue Bryn and I, although not frequently, and only when we were in each other hair a little too often, so although this was a rare occurrence, I left the croft quickly in only a light jacket and rather annoyed.

Once outside I felt a little cold in the chilly breeze off the sea, but not wanting to face Bryn, and as I really did hate arguing, I set my sights on reaching the top of the dunes. Kicking at odd clumps of grass as I walked, my initial bad humour fell away as I looked about me at the nature around me. Herring gulls wheeled in the sky, their plaintive calls reaching me from above, and as I neared the dunes tops, I could see Shags over the sea preparing to dive. At last reaching the Marram grass covered sandy tops of the dunes I could see the Shags more clearly, and that they were diving from a great height into the sea. Dad had explained to me on the ferry over to Harris how they were fishing, and how from far above in the sky their sharp eyes could see the silver shadows of the fish far below them.

My intention had been to walk along the top of the dunes until they curved around the beach to become the bay that this long white sandy beach backed, but now seeing the sand and the restless sea below me, and on the spur of the moment, I instead ran nearly tumbling down the face of the dunes before arriving at a large log drawn up from the questing claws of the sea. Here I sat a while, and just gazed in the grey green water, and then to out further where little tossing waves, tipped with white spume, and rainbow coloured bubbles created wherever the sun glanced across the agitated waters.

I sat and thought of my stupid argument with Bryn, not even now remembering why it even started! Then I got up and strolled closer to the water looking into the cascading pebbles, shells and sand that the sea impatiently spread upon the white sands, and then caught up again with its clutching fingers and dragged back to its bosom. Dad had told me he suspected the sea to be a woman, and I had laughed a little then, knowing he had such a vivid imagination, but also myself feeling he was somehow right.

I walked slowly along the very edge of the sea, my feet darting to and fro, playing a game with them as they tried to wet my feet, sometimes they won, and before I reached the blue rocks at the extreme of the bay, my shoes and socks were wet with their salty foam. On reaching the rocks I pulled off my shoes and socks, for although it was cold, my feet being wet already, gained nothing by being enclosed by my shoes, and felt squelchy. Maybe for just a moment I will admit, the idea passed through my mind that hanging them around my neck would allow them to dry quickly in the slight breeze.

I set foot to stone, and scrambling up the side of the bay, which was a little difficult as my feet slipped easily to some extent on the slimy rock faces, but I at last made their rocky tops, and had a better view into the next bay. A much shorter beach backed it, and a rougher sea where the now larger waves pushed through the narrow neck of that little bay. Up here on the rocks between the two bays, I had a lovely view down to the water’s edge around the rocky point, and I thought for a moment that I saw the backs of what looked like Dolphins further out in the sea! Dolphins! My favourite sea creatures, and one’s which I had never seen alive, let alone wild ones!

I ran to the most westerly point of the short headland, to see if I could get a better view of them, if indeed they were what I suspected. Dad had said when we arrived on Harris, that we might see Whales and Seals here if we were observant! What a great thing to tell the others at dinner tonight if I managed a close sighting of these mysterious sea beasts, and then without a thought, I scrambled out onto the end of the point, further than I should have gone, and forgetting all about Dad’s advice to stay away from the cliff sides. Yes, yes, it was Dolphins and they seemed to be curving towards me, maybe they were as intent of spying me as I of them. Nearer and nearer they came to the rocks below me, and now I could see them frolicking, and almost dancing through the clear, but rough waters of the sea below me. I leaned over the edge to get a better view as they almost, but not quite touched the smooth rocks below me, a little further wouldn’t hurt, maybe just that little more, wow what a perfect view!

Suddenly my right foot slipped a little on the shiny wind and wave worn rock of the point, just a little, but it threw me off balance, and when I shuffled my left foot a little to compensate, I found nothing under it, and then… I fell forward, wind milling my arms, and into the arms of the wind tossed sea thirty feet below me…

I had never learned to swim, and I was never even bothered, Mum, Dad and Bryn all enjoy a swim, but I hated swimming pools, hated the over chlorinated smell, and all the noisy people, and so I panicked as I hit the water. Under I went, mouth open in shock of the cold and the fall, salty, sea weedy taste filled my mouth and nostrils, and as I tried to breath, it filled my lungs. I had never before felt so cold, and so scared! Downwards I felt my body sink, and then I realised that this may be where I could end my short life, here amongst the Dolphins, clutched to the breast of the sea and Mother Nature, and then all became dark and distant.

I came too, draped over a hard rounded surface, I felt arms holding me, helping me as I coughed out the last of the sea from my lungs, the new air burning as it filled me with the oxygen I badly needed. A soft voice at my ear, telling me they could do no more for me, could go no further, but that my Father was on the way, a voicing seemingly fading away, and then the feeling of strong supportive arms also disappearing. I tried to raise myself off the rounded object, but fell off, and in desperation laid out now on the wet sands, I curled inwards, trying to dispel the wet, the cold, and then as from a distance, I heard my Fathers voice, and I hoped all would be well just as yet again the blackness descended…

The Log by the Sea – Part 15.

The Log by the Sea

The Log by the Sea…

Part 15.

Doors, tables and Paramedics…

I staggered to the croft, and managed to kick hard on the wooden door with one boot whilst cradling Esme in my arms. The door opened brusquely with Evelyn wearing an annoyed expression, but as soon as she saw Esme in my arms all bedraggled, and with putty coloured skin, she gasped. Evelyn rapidly guided me through the croft to the kitchen table where she instructed me to place Esme on the table top, and then checked her breathing.

Evelyn felt for Esme’s pulse, and then shouted stridently to Bryn to get some blankets from the beds, she jerked unsoiled clothes from the towel rails, and then promptly set about drying Esme’s hair

Before wiping as much sand from Esme’s face as possible, and then checking her breathing once more. She laid her hand on our girl’s forehead and asked me if I had checked her lungs before I had brought her up from the beach? I quickly told her of how I had found Esme, and what I had done. I told Evelyn that I had positioned Esme in the recovery position, and that she appeared to be breathing normally if a little shallowly, but that I could not leave her alone to go for help, and that I had also been worried Esme might be suffering hyperthermia! I told her I had made the decision to carry Esme as far as the croft where there was a phone and blankets.

Evelyn assured me I had done the right thing in getting Esme here, and in not leaving her on the icy sand near the sea, but that not we needed to get her warm now, and also call for an ambulance. Bryn appeared with the blankets looking petrified and suddenly extremely young, so Evelyn and I wrapped up Esme, and then transferred her to the couch in front of the fire whilst Bryn rang for an ambulance. Having undressed Esme, we each took an arm and worked on them, rubbing them energetically, and then moved on to her legs, once again rubbing vigorously. Esme’s colour improved and I began to feel less worried; Evelyn however wore a deepening frown, and said she was worried that Esme had not woken up yet, and that she may have injuries that we could not see! I hesitated to tell Evelyn about what I had actually seen on the beach below the croft and my thoughts on what I thought may have happened.

Within fifteen minutes of Bryn’s call to the emergency services, the paramedics arrived, and quickly using state of the art equipment checked Esme’s vital signs. We were assured all would be OK, and when Evelyn voiced her opinion on internal injuries, the woman who had told us that Esme would be OK, assured us that they could find no signs of external problems, no marks; no lesions which would lead them suspect Esme might be extremely ill. However Esme would have to go to the hospital in Stornoway for overnight observation and further checks. Evelyn told me she would go in the ambulance when it arrived, and that I should follow in the car with Bryn. Minutes later the ambulance arrived; Esme was strapped to a stretcher and left with Evelyn on the long journey to Stornoway. As Evelyn got into the ambulance, she looked back and I saw tears in her eyes, her face drawn with worry, I tried to look assured, but my own mind was racing with the hopes that all would be well in the end.

I packed a bag of the few things Esme would need for a stay in hospital as Bryn got some books and other odds and ends together for her sister. Putting Esme’s clothes into the holdall calmed me down somewhat, and I began to feel better, now realising how much I had been in a constant state of panic and anger over the Fae man in the sea. A few minutes after the ambulance left, Bryn and I jumped into the Audi and started our own long journey to Stornaway and hoped to find Esme much better and awake when we got there…

The Log by the Sea – Part 14.

The Log by the Sea

The Log by the Sea – Part 14.

The next morning…

The next morning Evelyn and I decided to go for a drive along the coast road towards Leverburgh, and left after breakfast with the girls. Neither Bryn nor Esme wished to get back into the car yet again after enduring the long drive to the Isle of Harris a day before, and were more inclined to read, and then maybe walk along the coastline. I gave both Bryn and Esme stern instructions to stay away from any cliff edges, and under no circumstance to go into the sea, I did not admit I was actually concerned about the Fae I had seen in the sea the day before, and as I had not yet told them the farmers tales I did not want to appear daft, something I was to regret later!

Once Evelyn settled herself into her car seat, she had made sandwiches from the leftover bacon and sausages I had not managed to eat for breakfast, and a flask of hot tea, we expected to be out for a few hours at the very least, if not to the end of the day.

Once underway all thoughts of yesterday’s events sank to the bottom of my mind, especially as I couldn’t see either of our girls even paddling in what would be an extremely bitterly cold sea. The road wound along the coast, and for most of the way we had stunning views of the sea, before finally rounding one of the bottom corners of Harris and heading into the small town of Leverburgh. We found a parking spot on the harbour and watched the ferry leaving for Berneray. I wished we could have grabbed a quick place ourselves, but I also knew it might be impossible to return that day, and we could not leave the girls alone a whole night without letting them know where we had gone!

From Leverburgh we made our way around the back of the Isle, which looks out, over the sea to Skye. There were many stunning views, and I had to stop often for Evelyn to take photographs. At around 11:30 we pulled into the side of the road, which looked over a particularly fine view of the little islands surrounding the Isle, and parked, here we ate our sandwiches and drank the hot tea from our flask, idyllic is a word I would use for these moments Evelyn and I shared together in time.

The rest of the day was a blur and eventually having circumnavigated Harris we arrived back at the croft. Back in the house we found Bryn reading in the little lounge, sitting in an old overstuffed armchair by the fire. Evelyn went straight into the kitchen and started the evening meal, as I perched on the edge of a couch and asked Bryn where what she and Esme had been up to all day? Bryn looked over the top of her book and told me she had been reading all day, or catching up with her sleep, but Esme had left the house just after us, and she had not seen her since. I hauled myself up, and made my way outside, walked a little way past the black house with its clattering carvings, and then looked along the dune tops hoping to see Esme returning from her walk. All I could see though was waving Marram grasses, no sign of Esme whatsoever, and so I made my way to the view above the beach thinking she might be collecting shells or driftwood for the fire on the high tide mark. I did not see her along the line of the beach, and then as my eyes scanned back and forth, they came to rest on the log high above the sea line. I saw something wrong with it; it appeared as if there was lots of flotsam piled in front of it, and then with a shock I realised that what had appeared at my first glimpse to be sea waste, was in fact a small body huddled into the face of the log, one arm draped over its rounded sea and wind smoothness!

I ran full tilt down the dune face and quickly reached the small body, I knew the clothing instantly, it was Esme my daughter, she was lying face down in the damp sand, her long hair covered in seaweed and sand, the side of her face grey. For a moment I thought my heart would burst as I knelt and rolled her over seeing her vacant face fully for the first time. I pulled her up into my arms, and felt for a pulse in her wrist, faintly her heart still beat beneath my fingers, and I could see she was breathing very slowly and a little raggedly. I laid her back down on and took my coat off, laid it on the sand, and then placed Esme in the recovery position. I wasn’t sure if she needed medical help, and also I was loath to leave her to get any help, if only Evelyn had been with me!

Finally I decided as she appeared to be half drowned, and although her breathing was not too good, I would carry her to the house myself. I lifted Esme onto my shoulders in a firemen’s lift, staggering a little in the soft sand, before starting up the last part of the beach and onto the dune face. The dune was hard to climb with Esme’s extra weight and I slipped backwards nearly as much as I moved forward. It took what seems an age to get to the top finally, and almost exhausted I lifted Esme down from my shoulders for a moment to catch my breath. Standing on the edge of the dunes with Esme in my arms I happened to look back towards the sea. There he was, standing in the sea waist deep, staring at me, staring at my daughter, and for a moment uncontrollable rage ushered into my brain, and if I had not had my daughter half dead in my arms I would have sprinted down the dunes and attacked him, Fae or not!

Instead I turned away, gritted my teeth and walked as fast as I could back to the croft, where I knew Evelyn would know what to do…

The Log by the Sea – Part 13.

The Log by the Sea

The Log by the Sea – Part 13.

To the Dune tops…

When the crofter finished his yarn, we sat and quietly finished our mugs of tea, I glimpsed the time on my watch and realised the morning was moving on rapidly, and that it was already eleven fifteen! So standing I informed him that I had enjoyed his tale, but we needed to get back as lunch was approaching and Evelyn might be wondering where we were. Calling to Bryn and Esme, I took leave of the crofter who asked if we would stop by again, as he did not see too many people. In a rush of human kindness I asked if he would like to stop by for an evening meal one night. Evelyn might not be pleased having to cater for more, but then I could always cook myself. He with pleasure approved, saying it would be nice to yarn with me again. We left the farm and carefully made our way down the hill track, stopping often to admire the view before us of the restless sea. As we approached our black house I saw no indication of Evelyn and gazed off along the dune tops hoping to see her returning from her own walk. Looking at my watch again I saw the tine to be eleven forty five now, it had taken us just under half an hour to make our way back down the hill, and I asked the girls to go in and make some lunch whilst I had a look for Evelyn.

Firstly I approached the black house of the man who disappeared into the sea; once again I wandered around the outside, and even plucked up courage and peered in through the window into the main room. Inside it looked tidy and regular, a hefty bed made up with what appeared to homespun quilts pending the owner’s eventual return. As I strolled along the stone sides, I occasionally touched the wooded carvings, and stopped at a particularly fine example of an Otter. It was astounding how much detail the carver had shaped into the little wooden shape, and as I cradled it in my palm it felt warm to touch, and I got an unexpected sense of comfort from a job well done. In the back of my mind I remembered how the crofter in his yarn had described the man who had lived here, as a bad man, and yet, that was not the feeling I got from this artefact of his. Next to the Otter hung a Rabbit, carved as though in fright, crouching just as a Rabbit is want to do upon hearing a predator nearby. Again it felt kindly and almost comforting; I had an abrupt rush of empathy for the man who had carved these diminutive wooden native creatures. Maybe he had been bad once, and he may have been troubled when he arrived here in the Isles, but I had a feeling he would have healed in time here on this rugged coastline, an essentially moral man warped by the outside world.

Reaching the deep-set doorway of the black house, yet again I felt that upsetting, almost gut feeling of malevolence, wholly dissimilar from the rest of the dwelling. I caught a glimpse of the charm left by the elder woman from North Uist, turning a little in the slim breeze. I then understood that this was the centre of all that was in fact dire in this home of the man on the log. I pulled my gaze away from this thing, and then headed across the Marram grasses towards the dune tops facing out to sea. Each step I took away from the black house behind me reduced the horrid mood I had encountered when near the crofts inset doorway. As I walked I kept an eye out for Evelyn, but saw naught of her and in time arrived at the point of the dunes where I could look downwards at the log where I had seen the missing man sitting before. Even though I now knew him to be a Fae, and supposedly an evil influence, he would not scare me if I saw him again!

Looking down the face of the dunes, I saw Evelyn climbing towards me, two steps up, and one step back as the light sands of the dune face moved beneath her. She was smiling up at me, and then beyond her I saw the man standing waist deep in the sea looking directly at me. Evelyn arrived, red faced and puffing a little as I engaged eye to eye contact with the creature in the sea, neither of us moved until Evelyn stood beside me, then he dived under the water and did not reappear. I asked Evelyn what she had been up to, and she explain gushingly how she had walked the edge of the dunes firstly, and then made her way down to the beach and walked back that way until she encountered the man who had been seated on his log. I asked if he had spoken to her, and she said ‘no’ but they have exchanged nods she thought.

We walked back to our rented croft and I thought about the man. When we arrived back home through the waving and clicking Marram grasses, Evelyn emptied her pockets of tiny bits of driftwood, small white shells, and various broken coloured glass, which had been ground to rough pebbles by the actions of the crashing waves. A little later at the lunch the girls had prepared for us all, and when Evelyn asked what the girls and I had found out, I did not mention the Farmers tales, and left the girls to excitedly tell of the small farm and its animals…

The Log by the Sea – Part 12.

The Log by the Sea

The Log by the Sea.

Part 12.

The Crofters Tale…

My grandfather told me that back in the middle of the twentieth century, a man came to live in one of the black houses owned his grandfather below this farm on the coast. He said that his grandfather had been really struggling at that point in time. Although Grandmother and he did not need a lot of money to survive in those times, it had been a very hard winter and they had been left with no funds at all. Faced with maybe having to sell the farm to keep my father and his sister fed and clothed, he had eventually agreed to actually sell part of the farm, mainly one of the black houses to a stranger who had arrived on Harris. My Grandfather said he had been offered a rather absurdly high sum of money for the house, and so had willingly accepted and indeed thought himself incredibly fortunate. The man had been rather dour and kept himself to himself, something that my Grandfather was only too happy with, and so they had settled into seeing each other on occasion, but barely exchanging a word, and sometimes nothing more than a grunt.

My Grandfather did say he noticed that the man spent a lot of his time carving miniature figures of local animals, and also had spied him swimming in the sea lying below the sand dunes, and that the black house sat upon in the hinterland. The man swam up and down the shoreline as though this action would somehow cleanse him of whatever made him want to be alone from the rest of the world and when he saw him after his swim he did in truth seem to be more in harmony.

It would emerge from Grandfathers words that the money paid for the house was so marvellous that he had been able to consider building a new croft on the hinterland. A fresh croft, which would assist the family to endure a change for the better, as the Outer Hebrides itself had been attracting more tourists since the end of the Second World War and so more money, was available on the Isle. The black houses had been originally built to let his great grandfather, but the war had of stopped anyone from holidaying there or anywhere, and Grandfather said this had thrown his own plans into total disarray. So grandfather had determined to make contact with a indigenous builder, who had agreed to put in foundations for a two story croft, which would have all mod cons, a croft Grandfather knew he could advertise, and with the beautiful beach below it, would attract families who hopefully would paid acceptably for the privilege of staying for a week or two on the craggy coast of Harris.

The build went well and the house began to appear quite rapidly, the only oddity was the builder telling him that the man in the black house had been a little troubled when he heard of the influx of tourists, and had appeared nearby and looking agitated on a number of occasions. Having said that though, the builder assured grandfather that the man never came near enough to address, but rather paced the boundary of the site looking unhappy. The local men employed by the builder were a suspicious and gloomy bunch, and told him that they felt the man was up to no good, but they continued with their work, if anything more though with a little more speed, This suited both the builder and Grandfather, as they needed the money as much as anyone else on Harris, and the last thing either needed was the workmen leaving the site for some superstitious reason!

Then one rough weathered morning when the builder turned up for work as normal; there was no sign of the man. The builder thought nothing more of it, but did notice he saw him not at all through the day. The next day was the same, and the day after, thinking it strange that the man had not appeared, he ventured reluctantly to the man’s black house, but he seemed absent. The builder knew the man swam at midday each day, after all whilst eating his sandwiches and sitting on the dune tops, he had himself witnessed the man’s daily swim. So just before midday he had made his way to the dunes tops just to see if he could spot the man swimming and therefore put his own mind to rest on his disappearance.

Arriving at the heights of the dunes though, he gazed down and saw the lonely log that he knew the man sat on each morning contemplating his daily endeavour. It appeared that the man’s clothes were already tied to the log even though it was not yet midday, worried at the sight of this bundle; the builder made his way down the dune face and then walked the short distance to the log. Tied to the log by his belt, were clothes, but there were no unsullied prints leading to the waterline, and upon closer scrutiny the builder saw that the clothes were damp from overnight dew, and also had a fine covering of windblown sand. He suddenly comprehended that the man had gone into the sea a day or two ago, and had not returned!

Grandfather explained that there was a wide-ranging search for the man, and that even though no denizen of the Isles thought he would without a doubt be found alive, a need to lay his body to rest was inherent in their deep felt traditions. Alas his body was never recovered from the sea, and after a few days the search was called off. Everybody went back to their normal way of life, and the builders returned to the new croft and kept wary eyes towards the sea. Grandfather said that the men then apparently began to see the man walking the dunes tops, carving outside the nearby black house, and occasionally he had been spotted circling the building site as he had before his suspected drowning in the nearby sea. The men being born and breed of the Isles, believed that the site was now haunted by this restless ghost, a ghost of bad omen, a man who had not been at rest in his life, let alone death. Grandfather eventually called a local Catholic priest in to allay the men’s superstitions’, a priest whom attempted to lay this agitated soul to rest. All this was to no avail though, and as the vision of the dour man was still seen, eventually the local workmen refused work on the new croft for the builder; Grandfather then decided to reluctantly resort to a much older religion of the Isles!

A Women from nearby Isle of North Uist was asked to come a lay this shade to rest, she walked the coast, and stayed a night in the man’s black house. After a couple of days she declared the man to be indeed an evil soul, and that she would stop this Fae from returning from the sea to the land, where it would terrorise those still with the living. She then hung an object which she made over a few days, made with all of the essence of the Isles placed within it and then hung this on the sunken doorway of the black house, she also then cast a spell made from ancient Celtic magic, which she said would tie him to the sea forever. After this mystical ceremony, the man was only seen once, or twice sitting on his log at apparent ease, or standing in the sea waist deep as though awaiting something, but he was not seen near the new croft, or indeed anywhere near the black house he had inhabited. Grandfather shut the man’s croft up, and left it much as if the man had just left that day, fearing that touching anything might well annoy the now excised spirit, bringing its wrath upon himself.

After all that excitement, the only thing that happened newsworthy, had been one of the new tourists staying at the newly finished croft, had died of a heart attack a few years back. The elderly man’s ashes had been scattered on the dunes tops as per his wishes. Latterly this very week, his wife who had lived a few years on after his demise had returned herself to be scattered with her beloved husband. Around about this time for a few weeks running up to the scattering of these ashes, a few locals, and indeed the farmer himself had seen the man sitting on his log, just once or twice you understand, and from a distance, but other than that, it had been very quiet for years…